The past 7-8 months have been pretty incredibly busy.  And, no I have not created my Tae Kwon Do Center yet!  And that is okay. 

There came a point when I became very unsettled.  I know that I can create and invent my life, but what if I never discovered my life's purpose?  What if I was never fully satisfied?  There I was like a ping-pong ball engaging in other people's projects because I thought I should, and their project is inspiring.  I was also battling between doing that which calls to me and going only after money.  I was leaning more towards chasing money.

At some point, a series of synchronous events led me to a series of books starting with the book "Living With Joy".  Joy, something I wasn't sure I had any longer.  I was to discover otherwise once I started to speak to people and once I started to eliminate the clutter of activities that I thought I should be doing.  Note:  I said should rather than love.  :)  There are a few things that I enjoy in life:  Tae Kwon Do, writing, travelling, adventure/exploration, hiking, talking to people (the fulfilling conversations, not the empty conversations of gossip, weather and the like). 

Over the next week and a half, I will be testing for my 3rd degree black belt.  I will continue to be intensely studying this next week and a half, and I will be writing an essay of my future as a black belt.  That  is perfect because I was planning to create an invent that in December.  :)  And, in the meantime, I will continue reading the book "Living with Joy" and doing the meditations. 

In following my joy, I will take one step at a time.  Sometimes the light of our path only shines that far ahead.

I had spoken to a man, in my seminar, about a month ago.  He had suggested that I check out his site.  And I finally did.  He is committed to developing places for creatives.  I could write more, but I won't do him justice.  Rather, if you are out to create or envision the next generation neighborhoods and communities for entrepreuneurial markets, you will want to visit this amazing website:  http://www.cooltownstudios.com/about.html

Yesterday was the climax of my frustration with regards to a leadership accountability I have.  The problem wasn't time, it wasn't too many activities that I am engaged in, or anything else like that.  The problem was that I did not have a future that was big enough for me to aspire to.  In those moments when I have a future that is big enough, anywhere in life, it is like I am drawn to action and I am inspired.

The second part of the frustration was that I had a broken agreement to lead classrooms for a leadership program in Feb. because I choose to coach another leadership program first. 

So, I am creating what classroom leader is and will be for me.  That is perfect because this weekend, I also have an essay to write expressing what my future is as a black belt in Tae Kwon Do.

It would be tempting to now create and design every aspect of my life this weekend; however, I am going to take it one step at a time.